I’m so accustomed
to keeping my sword sheathed,
that its sharpness unsettles
even me.
Liner
Notes for this Groove:
It’s been a rough week, Groovers. To be perfectly honest, I’m still reeling a
bit from fallout after a heated political conversation with someone who (not to
put too fine a point on it) frankly should have known better.
I’m aware that a lot of my surface
persona (both on-line and in the physical world) is bubbly, sometimes
thoughtful, but not obsessed with appearing too serious. One of my college
nicknames was “Lil’ Bouncy One”. But people who have known me for a long time
are fairly aware I have a bit of a stereotypical temper. I’m not nice when finally angered. If you’re lucky, I’ll just wash
my hands of you and never let the thought of your existence bother my calm
again. If not, I’ll scorch and salt the earth behind me while toasting
marshmallows over the wreckage.
This last time though, has me
thinking of the TV trope
Woobie, Destroyer of Worlds. It’s not that I didn’t mean what I said; I
meant every word. And the anger I’ve had over the topic of the discussion has
been building for a while. It’s that in the past I prided myself on keeping
cool at times like that. I wanted to be someone who builds bridges, not burns
them. But (like most people in the US) I’m more than a little tired and angry
that I have to keep explaining that people outside your group (however you
define it) are still human too.
As I unpack the feelings from the
fallout, I’m finding that it’s providing fertile ground for a bunch of poems
for my upcoming poetry collection, as well as for my prose writing. I suppose
that doesn’t make me much different from other poets or authors. A lot of us
work out some of those complicated feelings through our words, right? But I’m
not sure I’d do things, well as intensely, if I had to do it again. I may not
have started it, but I escalated a verbal Armageddon when I could have chosen
differently. Neil Gaiman once famously wrote, “Honestly, if you're given the
choice between Armageddon or tea, you don't say 'what kind of tea?” It might
have been better for both sides to have had the cuppa of their choice and
thoughtfully engage afterwards.
So let’s talk Groovers. Have you
ever had an instance when the words that came out of your mouth might've done hurtful things you didn't intend? Tell me about it in the comments or just talk to me about what’s new
in your world. My cyber home is open for conversation. As always, if you’d like
to continue the conversation in your own cyber home, bring that up in your
comments and hit me with a link.