Lucky

It's still too early
for the comfort of newborn green,
but underneath the leafless cherry blossom tree
there are bowls of tea for the ones who aren't here.

In warmer times
I first learned how a splash of water
can lift a scent high enough to soothe a spirit.
I'd almost forgotten

those earliest days
of fumbling unfamiliarity
and how quietly something can change

from part of the background
to something inviting 
deeper consideration.

There is a hidden path here.
I discovered it by going around

the obvious delights,
of the stone lanterns, the pond, and the maples,
to a dark and overgrown thicket of bamboo.

Today, 
I make sure to pay my respects
there, remembering the first time
curiosity drew me.

I greet the gods I find here.
This time I understand the reason
for smiles and tears.

I cup my hands around 
the memories that brought me here
warmed by today's tea
under the leafless tree
and give thanks.

How lucky I was.
How lucky I am.

Three kami in the woods




Liner Notes For This Groove: If you came around via Poets and Storytellers United, feel free to skip this part because it's a lot longer than 369 words. Though I am elaborating a bit on the prompt I gave this week, "looking back".

So for the last couple of weeks I've been looking over all my old blog posts. It's been an interesting experience, not just in showing me ways I've changed as a writer. There are a lot of other changes too. Last September, we lost my mom-in-law. She was the bedrock of my husband's side of the family and navigating a post-Ellen world is just plain odd (when it isn't deeply sad). 

tea with Mom Driks
Tea with Mom Driks

I don't think I mentioned it on this blog, but we also welcomed another corgi into our family, Jelly Bean. Like my dearly departed Kit, she's a rescue. But she's *ahem* a lot more complicated than he was. I think we've finally got her used to the idea that this is her forever home (but she still thinks the ceiling fan is out to get her).
 
Jelly Bean and Lamb Chop
Don't let that cute face fool you. 
She's bossy and anxious.

I quipped on PS&U about the change in my all-time favorite book series. But in a lot of ways that change really does represent a lot of the ways I've changed. I was unaware about lot of things. I'd even say that I was a bit naive. Sure, I still love a generous dose of whimsy and magic. But these days, I relate better to sharply satirical (and hilarious) whimsy that isn't afraid to take a hard look at some of the biggest ways our world is broken. (That the author doesn't appear to be a massive jerk is a bonus too.) There's something to be said for whimsy as an act of defiance.

Dungeon Crawler Carl
You will not break me
from Dungeon Crawler Carl
by Matt Dinniman

I think in most ways, I've become more solid in who I've always been. So what seem like changes on the outside feel more like coming home to myself.

One thing that absolutely hasn't changed is my love of tea. This piece was inspired by a recent trip to Shofuso, the Japanese house and garden in Philly. I actually haven't practiced tea there in ages. Of course, I've been practicing tea, but my tea teacher had the space to build a traditional Japanese tea room in her house. When changes occurred that limited our use of the rooms in Shofuso, the students of Philadelphia Urasenke just went to their tea teacher's homes instead (we have multiple teachers, all with their own tea rooms).

The reason for my visit was a bittersweet one. There was a memorial to honor the passing of two senior members of our tea school as well as the passing of Hounsai Hanso Soshitsu, the 15th generation Grand Tea Master of the Urasenke School. I never met the Grand Master, but Keijiroh and Terry were always very warm and kind people, thrilled to share their love of tea. Terry was the one who convinced me to step up and do public demonstrations. I'll be thinking of her at this year's Cherry Blossom festival, when I'll be doing a string of demos all day long.

Here are a few pictures of my visit:

View of the pond and tree at Shofuso

bridge to the island in the pond




Keijiroh Yamaguchi, Terry Sherwin, and Hounsai Hanso Soshitsu

So that's pretty much it for me. Thank you for reading this far! Anything new in your world? Let's talk about it in the comments.



19 comments:

  1. I'm glad you feel lucky! This was a delightful read, both the poetry and the prose. (The more-than-369-words went fast.) Mind you, my brain boggles at the idea of so much ceremony, only to arrive at tea at the end of it all. I am not a fan of tea! Coffee, now — there I can wax eloquent. (Herbal teas are good, though.) However, I'm glad for you that you get so much enjoyment out of both the ceremony and the tea, and I'm very glad it has such deeper meaning and effect for you.

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    1. My husband is a dedicated coffee drinker too. I like it on occasion, but I definitely reach for tea first

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  2. Lovely poem and so glad you are still very involved in the Japanese tea ceremony and esthetic! You are walking a wonderful path while clearly still evolving and coming ever more into the fullness of yourself. Now that Queen Elizabeth II is gone, I assume you are taking over her role as #1 Corgi Fan of the World?

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  3. Love this stanza:
    "those earliest days
    of fumbling unfamiliarity
    and how quietly something can change"

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  4. What a beautiful and flowing remembrance - so many tender images to let grow - Jae

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    1. Shofuso has a very special place in my heart

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  5. wow what an absolute delightful poem I resonate with every line Just beautiful and sorry to hear about your mom in law and love your cute Jelly bean

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    1. Thank you, Marja. She lived a full and amazing life, but is so very missed. Family functions feel strange without her presiding over them

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  6. That is a wonderful, gentle poem. Thank you.

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  7. Love how you cupped your hands around the memories and created a ceremonial cadence of gratitude under the leafless tree.

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    1. The small movements of the tea ceremony find there way into other moments of my life all the time. I sometimes laugh when I catch myself doing them.

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  8. Condolences for the loss of your Mother in Law. Tea is a staple in our household too and your new pup sounds interesting:).....Rall

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    1. Thank you, Rall. Jelly Bean just had a pretty hard life before she came to live with us. She's gotten used to many things now, but she will still hide if there's even a hint of a drizzle outside. I suspect she had been left tied out in the rain a lot before coming home to us.

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  9. The goodbyes are creeping closer. I see people who set out to conquer the world(s) taking care of loved ones while they are still around, adventures forgotten - and I am grateful that we are here nevertheless, making room for the next generation of heroes.

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    1. I am very grateful for that too. Thank you for staying around.

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  10. Hands cupped around memories will ensure that they stay.
    I love the poem, the prose, and the lovely photos. It's wonderful that you feel lucky! Jelly Bean gives the appearance of a perfectly behaved dog.
    But, looks can be deceiving!

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